So I got up last Sunday determined to go for a run since I hadn’t run in about a week. It was overcast as I was getting ready so I checked the weather online. A big red warning bar greeted me. Eighty percent change of strong thunderstorms with heavy rain. It was claimed they would hit later in the morning. I clicked on the radar and only saw a tiny shower hundreds of miles away. It’s not like I was running a marathon. I’d be back in a half hour. I ran then did the post run stuff: shower, eat a bit. It was about the time the storms were supposed to hit so I checked the weather again. The heavy storm warning was gone. It now claimed a hundred percent chance of rain that should come about noon. So noon rolled around and there still wasn’t any rain. Now the weather site listed a fifty percent change of rain about two pm. Two pm came around an I had to go somewhere so I checked again. Now it said a twenty percent chance of some showers around eight pm.
On the very tails of writing Two Kinds of People, I found a blog post that re-enforced some of the things I wrote about. I am not going to give a link or name a name since I don’t want to embarrass that person.
LOSERS by flickr user Herbalizer
We can be both kinds of people
I would describe the blogs author as a winner. A person who has made their own life. I’ve followed them online for years. Over ten years ago they decided to make a new life. They changed careers and found happiness and fulfillment through willful choice. And yet here was this person that I saw as an inspiration writing a whiny loser post. So even a person who has been the model of living with intention can wallow in self pity and defeatism. I am convinced that if they were to continue in this attitude it would drag them down to more negativity. Knowing them I assume that they will begin being positive again.
Luck is a loser word
I tweeted out recently “Luck” A loser word, losers use when other people win. Luck is a word I almost never read in this person’s vocabulary, and yet here it was four times in one post. Luck seems to rarely be a word used by “winners” (Note: as you can tell I am struggling with what terminology to use to describe these two types of people) even when talking about things not within their control. You are not lucky or unlucky as to who your parents were. “I am glad I had such good parents”, or “my upbringing wasn’t the best but I have gotten to were I am.” Winners don’t view life circumstances as lucky or unlucky. Things you can’t control are seen simply as the things that are. If it’s positive it is seen as an opportunity to be taken advantage of. If it’s negative it is seen as a circumstance to overcome. There is quite a bit of wisdom in the common American sports phrase “It is what it is.” A ref makes a bad call that affects the game? It is what it is. You deal and move on.
Losers are self obsessed and see other people’s success as an indictment
I touched on this in the previous posts. I think the best way to explain it is with an example. You are single and you see a happy couple. Seeing that couple makes you feel miserable. You might even see their existence as a commentary on your own failures. As if someone else’s happiness is about you. What are they suddenly supposed to be miserable so your self obsessed self can feel marginally better. Which you wouldn’t because it is not about them. It is about you. If they didn’t even exist you would feel the shame or the guilt because that is within you. I see this often. The idea that someone else’s success is a commentary on you as a failure. Trust me that person succeeding isn’t even thinking about you.
By some external measures of perfection my Mom would not fit the bill. She did not stay at home all the time in an apron cooking brownies. We didn’t live in a mansion or have everything we wanted. What I did have was love. Through good and bad times, and even the time I mighty have been annoyed, I knew she loved me. I knew that she wanted the best for me. Without her being how she was I would not be who I am. Therefore she was perfect.
You would probably think I would post something techy on my tech blog: www.tech-surge.com, but after reading this I am sure most people will understand. On that blog, I am pretending I know things about technology This makes me look like a dunderhead. I should be the head of the IT department for Reynholm Industries.
I built my desktop computer three or so years ago. Since I planned to use it to play games I put 8 Gigs of memory in it thinking that would be better than four. About a year or so ago I started having random crashes and problems. I tracked it down to one of the sticks of ram being bad so I took it out. Now I was running on only 4 gigs. I noticed some slowness, but put up with it since I didn’t want to spend any money.
Recently I got the whim to stream some of my gaming over the internet. Twitch.tv, the site I am streaming through, recommends 8 gigs of memory minimal to stream. I tried it with only 4 and it sorta worked but the game lagged a lot. I bit the bullet went online and ordered 8 more gigs of memory.
A few days later it showed up and I installed it. I didn’t notice any increased performance from my computer. It seemed exactly the same. I started checking things and my computer said it had 12 gigs installed but only 2.9 usable. SCREEECH Now anybody who knows anything about computers knows exactly what is going on here. I instantly assumed what the problem was but I thought there was no way I could be that stupid. I spent about 15 minutes trouble shooting things and then realized I had to check the obvious problem. With a shaking hand I clicked on the start menu and then right clicked on the Computerlink in the menu. I clicked properties and up popped a very helpful list of basic information about my computer. Obviously it said System Type: 32-bit Operating System. Yes I was that stupid. For the non technical people reading this(the technical people are too busy laughing) a 32 bit operating system can use a maximum of 4 gigs of memory. Those two years I had 8 gigs of memory I wasn’t using half of it. Somehow I screwed up and installed the 32 bit version.
So I’ve spent yesterday installing a 64 bit version of windows and spending hours installing updates and rebooting.